A Map of Life

Soki
2 min readDec 10, 2022
Photo by delfi de la Rua on Unsplash

Once, I had a map which showed me the best paths I could take to get somewhere. The problem was that I had no destination. So I pondered and pondered over the routes. Sure, the map showed me only the good ones, but which would be the best?

What if I made the wrong choice? I would have no one to blame but myself. Imagining the probable regret and frustration made me turn away from the map.

I went my way.

On the way, I made many stops and experienced various emotions; excitement when I started my journey, frustration when I faced barriers, joy when I had beautiful experiences, anger when something went awry…
Although I was no stranger to such emotions, it was my first time experiencing them simultaneously.

Those times flew by as if in a dream.
The day I started my first part-time job.
The week I spent learning the proper way of holding chopsticks.
The month I entered university.
The years I worked at a temple.
The moments I considered quitting university.
The times I felt like time was leaving me behind.

The years that went by like a dream have led me to a time where I feel stuck; I keep laying my plans on the table.

Had I been arrogant in going my way? Should I have followed one of the paths the map had offered? Would I have been less lost that way?

Perhaps time will tell.

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Soki

Trying to make sense of myself and everything around me through short stories and essays.